Change is Scary

It has been forever. I know. And I start almost every blog post with the same sentiment.

I have been doing some serious thinking about my job, relationships, friends and family. This one decision that I am going to make is going to make a lot of difference. It means a fresh start. It means sacrifices.

Opportunies

I'm having this huge dilemma that is causing me to lose focus with almost everything.

I have this big issue for getting bored too easily. I tend to jump from thing to another as and when my heart tells me so. I will fight the desire and if I failed, that will only mean that I wanted it too much.

I was given the opportunity to be exposed and to learn more things in the industry that never really crosses my mind. In my mind, I only knew that I can do this only once in my life.

Weighing what I have in hand, I thought it will be great if I "just do it". It was not difficult the first time around but the people had made it much harder than I can ever imagine this time.

I have to say that I felt really good when I was told about the opportunities that lay in front of me. I just wish that it will be truly realized soon.

.............

I never wait. Waiting is not really an option. I have bypassed both my high school and college life. I do not want to miss anything anymore. If there's something, I will grab it. Come what may.

One told me, "If I see a future and there's a potentiality to be actualized, I will stay, wait and see."

Between having to wait for opportunities and to actually to start doing something with uncertainties, which will you go for?

Lost Soul

To the lost soul of mine,

When you have wondered far enough and think that you should be home, remember to provide an indication.

Love,

Your aging physique

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Wish List 2012

Last year, I wished for an iPod touch with an engraving. I got an iPod Nano from ex bosses.

I wished for a skin care system that is natural and friendly to my sensitive skin. I had a bad experience earlier this year and was forced to switch to something else. Thanks to bff, Shirley's recommendation to use Cetaphil. My skin is getting much better on top of the frequent consultation from the dermatologist.

I wished for a diary year 2011 and I was given one when I report to work. So, I can cross that out as well.

Down to two things that are not in my possession yet: a pin up drawing of myself and a Christmas log.

This time, I am giving up on the Christmas log. It is just too silly to wish for something like that at this age. *uh hum*

My new public wish list:-

1. Lytro Camera (http://www.lytro.com/)

Yes, it may look funny but this little camera can do wonders! Notice the above baby picture? You can just change the focus the picture with one click! Try it out yourself here.

2. Mac Book Air

This is a consequential request. Visuals from Lytro camera can only be processed by Mac :P

3. Smart for two

Wanted the car in the longest time I can think of. Perhaps since the day I lay my eyes on it.

Many of you may not know, I am quite a fan of Hello Kitty. Bla bla bla...

4. A trip to Bali

I love islands because I long for beaches. This year, I want to be spend a week in Bali.

5. 5 high heels

*Pictures are for illustration purpose only. Don't think I can even stand properly with the heart shape heels

[Movie Reflection] One Day

I have abandoned this place for a while. I know. I know...

Watched another movie on my own last night and this time, I really could not sleep.

There was no true friendship. They were madly in love with each other.

There was no rules. They were meant to be broken anyhow.

The moment when you walked past me, I know we will be together as long as I breath.

Realization came much later than expected and only time can heal. I am sure you will cure me out of you.

XOXO

Remembering Baba and Nyonya

Remembering Baba and Nyonya.

My memory of watching their dramas is fading. Somehow when I heard people saying things about Baba and Nyonya, I recalled Uncle Chee and Kenny.

The last time I saw the duo, as most of us did, was in Nasi Lemak 2.0. I was reminded of how humorous they are. I was once again brought back to the times when I watched their shows in front of the 14 inch TV set.

After Nasi Lemak 2.0, I went back home and was yapping away about how little I was when I used to watch their dramas. Boyfriend said he saw them once in a wedding dinner before. At the moment, I told myself that I want them to host my wedding reception too!

Duo no more. Uncle Kenny is left alone. RIP Uncle Chee. I <3 you

Good bye, my friend.

Warning! This is a super emo post.

May 12. I wrote him an email. I told him about the wisdom teeth and the visits to dentist.

May 13. He wrote back. Bitter and angry.

May 13. Another email. I poured my heart out and perhaps said the things I have been keeping with me for years.

May 14. "We can talk until everything is resolved" he said.

May 23. He wanted an answer if anything is happening.

May 23. I was reluctant and fearful.

May 24. Email replied. He said, "go in peace"

May 25. Alex, I wish you well.