Random thoughts

I said, "Do whatever you think is right."

Alex just told me that he likes that phrase.

"That's a good way to say 'whatever'."

Lolz.

Maybe he is right.

When thing comes to the extent where what you say is irrelevant to the person, what else do you have to say to make things better? One has his or her own value and criteria for everything in life, what are you to think you are fit enough to refute it? I strongly believe in choices. We make choices and we pay for it. The price you pay indicates how much it means to you. Just choose LAR...

Xin Zhi was asking me what can she do to fit better in the world she is living with.

Suddenly I realise that I was asking the same to myself.

This is what I repied:-

"You do not change yourself and you never will and should not. For you know what you want in life ultimately and you are making choices that lead you to it. It is meaningless for you to care what others said and perceieved who you are. They are not you and NEVER have the right to judge you. We categorize people simply because that speeds up our cognitive processes. People do not mean what they say at times. Just be you. You will be very happy one day when someone said to you that he or she thinks you are genuine instead of other compliments."

I meet weird people and I talk to them. I still recalled having Alex as a weird friend. Lolz.

Maybe because I am weird...

Yipee!

Got one issue dissolved!

I am happy as it happens. God knows what will turn out to be if I never initiate.

Thanks for everything, Lord.

For you the only one who has the power to alter the circumstances, I devote my greatest trust to you.

=)

I googled my full name and I found this.

Miss those times in high school. We had so much fun being different from mst of the others.

Bff's

You are always my bff's.

However hurtful it may be, I decided to keep our promises to stay the same. This is the word I made for you.

I do not expect you to do the same in return. People change and things always change. What I expect from you is respect. I am able to convince myself that you did not do it out of purpose. I just want you to know that I value you as much.

Forgive me that I swear. It was just too painful to bear.

I love you!

Forever APR

Alex, this is specially dedicated to you.

Thanks for being there when I need a pair of listening ears. I hate the fact that you are able to see how things were to come along for it hurts you bad when it really fulfills your prophecy.

I just wanna say that the evolved friendship will forever stays the same.

I am very sorry for whatever I done you bad. I want you to know that by the end of the day, what matters to me the most is that you are there and still holding the friendship strong.

I may not give you good advices. I may not be emphathetic enough to comprehend your emotions. I may not be able to provide the affirmation that you seek. What I can give you is my genuine blessings and care.

Thanks for having me in mind. Thanks for not letting it to fade away. Thanks for everything...

"Fine"

I live my life on others' expectation and getting very tired with it.

I always know I should be happier with the way I am instead of what others think I am. I do hold that view strongly but I never let it prevails in real life.

I am getting fed up. Extremely.

Xin Zhi asked, "How is it like to love someone? What about liking someone?"

I replied, "I guess... Love lasts longer than the other."

Xin Zhi: "How do you know? How can you tell?"

Me: "I suppose you just know when it comes... Why you ask?"

Xin Zhi: "You don't love yourself, do you?"

Me: "I do... What you think that made me get out of the vicious cycle?"

Xin Zhi: "Cos' nobody approves it!"

Yes I care. In fact, I care a lot. She meant to say that I should know how love feels like...

I am fine without you. I care what you think about me simply because I care generally. Not just you alone.

Watched the movie, "bride war"

"How you doing lately?"

"I am fine."

"Fine is not a feeling."

"Well, people say that. I feel fine. I am fine."

I am REALLY fine without you.

Lame feeling

Just realise certain thing which I do not wish to know.

I know very well that my heart is still belonged. I find excuses to fit the past relationship into the ideal world with him or rather without him.

I am furious but it does not last too long. I realise that it is deteriorating.

I tell my friends that promises are meant to be broken. I guesses I fulfilled my own prophecy.

Hard to accept the truth but what to do when you have to? Something that I never wanna reveal, something that I can hardly imagine would come true...

It's not a bad thing after all. I expect that to happen. I just did not expect that to be this soon...

Something is no longer in your hand and will most probably not returning back...