Hey there

Words were exchanged and finally, we had the ultimatum.

It felt like it had been forever. It was those memories that kept me awake some of the nights.

Because of you, I kept myself away. As silly as it sounds, I was waiting and expecting. While it did not happen, another door opened for me. Warm and welcoming.

Ever since that day, everything became clear. I found another way to lead a meaningful life.

Glad that WE happened. Glad that WE had a past that I can remember.

Love was almost the only thing we had.

"The best I had and ever will have"

Nothing is ever good enough for we are engineered in the manner to strive for more, the best and the most. What we don't know is that there's no end to it.

"The best I had and ever will have"

Given that you know you own the greatest of all, will you still let it go? Why? Searching for something 'fresh'? Something that give you more pride? Or it's not really the best after all?

I can only say that it could be better. Damage has been done and forever it will stay damaged. Words were sharp and harsh. So be it. Honestly, I don't remember those anymore.

Love binds and separates. How ironic.

"If you love me, maybe you should let me go"

Maybe.

[Movie Reflection] The Last Tycoon

More of a romance than anything else I thought it would be.

Love was what they had and promises stayed till the moment when he came clean. She made an assumption that she could not live with the changes unveiled in front of her. She walked away and found another life that she thought would be perfect. Years later, they met again and the fire went on burning. Love is still what they have...

Does love guarantees a happy married life? Will love be strong enough to offset flaws? Can love last forever?

Screw That Love Song

Screw it! I had retyped this line for zillion times and that's it. No more rephrasing.

A close friend told me that I should enjoy what I am experiencing right now, lost and confused. And she promised that I will eventually get through it. The funny thing was, I used to know what I want to do with my life. It all went hay wire after a couple of failed relationships. Amazing what they did to me.

It has been three months since the last relationship and a whole lot of things happened since then. I can only described it "messy". It is so messy and I was vulnerable and lost. I hopped on one thing to another just to make myself feel better. Impulsive decisions were made and regretted. Some were beautifully wrong. Yes, they were beautiful. Of how it turned out eventually.

Attention received and tears dropped. I am hopeful yet fearful. Love life never go easy on me.

I repeat

Two months had gone by.

Reality kicked in yesterday with tremendous pain and fear. The smoke rose and the heart sunk.

A friend once told me about making choices, "There are no right or wrong choices. Only choices. Once made, you live it".

The same shit hole, will you jump into it more than once?

Sometimes choices are made obvious. Most of the times, it does not. It came clear but later, it turned sour.

Happiness is overrated. I repeat.

Be a Pirate in FB

Woot! Found something fun in Facebook setting today. You can change your Language to Pirate!

Here's how. Go to 'Home' and select 'Account Setting' from the drop down menu.

Under 'General', select Language 'English (Pirate)'

Tadah! 'haillin' from Bukit Mertajam. Ho ho ho! Oh wait, that's Santa :D

You can even terbalik your England. Lolz

:D

Above the Cloud

It is strange how life unfolds itself in front of us. Full of surprises, joy and sorrow.

What we used to be and what we were not are no longer a part of the now. I once thought that I will end up being hopeless for the rest of my life. Yes, I really thought so. For the power that I have is so little that it was almost to no existence.

To be where I am today was something out of expectation.

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