Lame feeling

Just realise certain thing which I do not wish to know.

I know very well that my heart is still belonged. I find excuses to fit the past relationship into the ideal world with him or rather without him.

I am furious but it does not last too long. I realise that it is deteriorating.

I tell my friends that promises are meant to be broken. I guesses I fulfilled my own prophecy.

Hard to accept the truth but what to do when you have to? Something that I never wanna reveal, something that I can hardly imagine would come true...

It's not a bad thing after all. I expect that to happen. I just did not expect that to be this soon...

Something is no longer in your hand and will most probably not returning back...