"Fine"

I live my life on others' expectation and getting very tired with it.

I always know I should be happier with the way I am instead of what others think I am. I do hold that view strongly but I never let it prevails in real life.

I am getting fed up. Extremely.

Xin Zhi asked, "How is it like to love someone? What about liking someone?"

I replied, "I guess... Love lasts longer than the other."

Xin Zhi: "How do you know? How can you tell?"

Me: "I suppose you just know when it comes... Why you ask?"

Xin Zhi: "You don't love yourself, do you?"

Me: "I do... What you think that made me get out of the vicious cycle?"

Xin Zhi: "Cos' nobody approves it!"

Yes I care. In fact, I care a lot. She meant to say that I should know how love feels like...

I am fine without you. I care what you think about me simply because I care generally. Not just you alone.

Watched the movie, "bride war"

"How you doing lately?"

"I am fine."

"Fine is not a feeling."

"Well, people say that. I feel fine. I am fine."

I am REALLY fine without you.